Saturday, May 14, 2005 : everyone's feeling so F***** up..
haha..it's true..and i think it's getting to me too. Sad..sad. ANyway, i had comb humanss lessons today. after which i went for lit. was horrible because i wanted to ask this friend of mine to go home with me after lessons. didn't dare to ask, so i didn't ask. was on the train with this friend. so quiet. didn't talk at all. this friend kept staring at something. shows me this friend is thinking. wanted to ask this friend, but didn't dare. went to bishan together to meet shaun and ai xuan. this friend was just so quiet. like as this friend don't want to talk to me at all. maybe this friend don't like or don't want to talk to me. i tried talking to this friend, but just..sigh. anyway, after lit, this friend, shaun and me went to bugis to see Fione. so glad to see Fione again. considering i haven't seen her for sometime. then went for dinner with shaun, Fione, her friend and this friend. kept quiet for the longest time and started reading up on SS. Really, i felt that reading SS was better than talking to her friend. after that, shaun and myself walked to the mrt and he left for work. i was so hoping that this friend was with me all the while. i know it'll never be possible but sigh. this friend is probably more interested in other things. i don't meant anything, but just felt like blarghing out this. this friend, i just wished that i didn't know this friend. so i needn't have to feel the way i feel now. this friend made me so ARGH! anyways, guess that shouldn't matter. seriously, i should have just came back home. so, i needn't go feel all lousy about this friend. aye..this friend...i only wish you read this? don't do what you did. handling the emotions is not easy. i'm trying, but it's not easy. sometimes i just wished that i hadn't know you at all. why? huh? why?
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
haha..it's true..and i think it's getting to me too. Sad..sad. ANyway, i had comb humanss lessons today. after which i went for lit. was horrible because i wanted to ask this friend of mine to go home with me after lessons. didn't dare to ask, so i didn't ask. was on the train with this friend. so quiet. didn't talk at all. this friend kept staring at something. shows me this friend is thinking. wanted to ask this friend, but didn't dare. went to bishan together to meet shaun and ai xuan. this friend was just so quiet. like as this friend don't want to talk to me at all. maybe this friend don't like or don't want to talk to me. i tried talking to this friend, but just..sigh. anyway, after lit, this friend, shaun and me went to bugis to see Fione. so glad to see Fione again. considering i haven't seen her for sometime. then went for dinner with shaun, Fione, her friend and this friend. kept quiet for the longest time and started reading up on SS. Really, i felt that reading SS was better than talking to her friend. after that, shaun and myself walked to the mrt and he left for work. i was so hoping that this friend was with me all the while. i know it'll never be possible but sigh. this friend is probably more interested in other things. i don't meant anything, but just felt like blarghing out this. this friend, i just wished that i didn't know this friend. so i needn't have to feel the way i feel now. this friend made me so ARGH! anyways, guess that shouldn't matter. seriously, i should have just came back home. so, i needn't go feel all lousy about this friend. aye..this friend...i only wish you read this? don't do what you did. handling the emotions is not easy. i'm trying, but it's not easy. sometimes i just wished that i hadn't know you at all. why? huh? why?
Sunday, April 24, 2005 : Whee!!
Haha...Niece came over to my place today and we played Hamburger game! Our childhood game! haha..Was really glad to see her again. Well, How's everyone doing? Looks like my taggie is really growing webs. Tag pple!!!! Sigh~ I really miss all of you!! Shoutout to my friends..
Belle: AH!!! I miss you! Really hope to see you real soon k mei? Then we can have the entire day to ourselves..haha..take care ya?
Charlene: Hey..any new w-inds song? Keep me updated ya?
Eve: Hey!! mIss you loads!! take care ya?
All that visit my site: Welcome!! plas feel free to tag ya? thanks! :)
yup..got to go now..will blog again soon. Take care one and all!!
Saturday, April 09, 2005 : Hello one and all!
Hello one and all! How are all of you doing? hey! do elabe some taggings behind ya? Really hope to catch up with you guys soon. Miss ya'll so much! Haha..Well, school's been really good. It's been a long time since i last wrote something here. Haha..well, i do hope to write something soon. got to go do some workl already! take care pple! hear from you soon k?
Tuesday, March 22, 2005 : Sch starts tml..
haha..yup..starts tml. Well, I guess sometimes life just have to be the way it it? to learn and perservere. take care!
Thursday, March 17, 2005 : Just something to share..I'll just write..
Mmm..ok. I just downloaded this site abt chem..haha. YOu know those atoms and stuff? It's pretty cool. Yup..it has got all the auto rotation of molecules and all. haha...ok! anyway, just want to share something with you guys. Have you people ever experienced that on one occasion people can be really nice to you and on the other this same human being can be nasty and horrendous? Mmm..imagine after you've went through so much with the person, like you guys go through a great deal of pain and happiness to build up a special friendship you and the person share, and after that everything is just shattered into pieces and AFTER ages later, this person starts asking your whereabouts. ok, so much so that you've gotten over that PERIOD when it seems like everything is just so dim..I mean..it's like what Evanescence sings about" if you have to leave, why don't you just leave, your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone, this pain won't seem to heal, this pain is just to real and it's something that time could not erase." It's just that. Just that. Yup. So, just treasure friendships as much as you can. I mean you never know when it'll end or regret or...I don't know..feel a sense of...sadness? After so long? I don't know. I mean, of course, people do change. It's the original feeling and the first impression and the original memory of the person whom you'll keep with you for the rest of your live. That would never go away. It'll always be inside, never will be forgotten. Just that things don't go the way we want it to go sometimes. Mmm..ok. Am i making any sense here? Haha..nevermind. Let bygones be bygones? ah~ it doesn't matter. Whatever that comes will come and whatever that happens will happen. Mmm..ok..enough said. Mmm...take care k? God Bless..
Wednesday, March 16, 2005 : Mmm...Long day. I really mean long day.
Hello one and all.
Mmm...a long day. Yup. School's starting soon for me on the 23rd mar. Mmm..Well, let's see...
I miss everyone? haha..yup..Sigh. Mmm..aye. ok..i'll write soon again k? just totally don't know what to write now. haha..take care guys! love ya! :)
Sunday, March 13, 2005 : Well.
Sorry for not putting my message clear. Haha..ain't going anywhere..but just going to spent this time to study again. Yup. Well, I guess i'll make it short. Gotta go and rest before I wake early tml once again, to a brand new day of challenges. Mmm..How's everyone? Hope everyone's doing great and all. Mmm..alright. I'll write again. SOmehow. Take care eh? :)
